Grandparents
Current mood: energetic

My grand parents came home for Georgia last night. They got home at about 10:45. So they have been in Sparks, Georgia which is about 20 miles from the Florida boarder. Sparks is about the size of Fairplane, and the near by town is about ten minutes away and about the size of Ripley. I can't remember the name of the town but I am sure my grand ma will tell me again and as soon as she does I will add it to this blog. They were visiting their good friends Charlie and Judy. They stayed in one of the guest houses. My grandparents are big TV watchers. They only had a 27 inch and no satellite or cable in Ga. So what where they doing last night when I went up to see them at about 10:55? They had their 62 inch TV on and the dish cranked up. Watching the news! Lol I know that they were happy to see us, but we had to tease Papa about not getting to watch anything because Mama will be catching up on her life time television! Lol.

Currently watching: In the Mix (Widescreen Edition) Release date: By 21 March, 2006

Waiting Current mood: anxious So I should be hearing any day now weather or not I got into nursing school. It is driving me crazy. What is going to happen in my life during the next few months depends on whether or not I am accepted. Not must my career life either, but my personal life my marriage….I have hard decisions to make. I really need to know. So like a stalker I watch for the mail carrier every day. I wonder what the penalty is for stalking a government employee? I am surprised the nursing department has not filed a restraining order against me! I am sure that some how I can blame my anxiety on my husband. So I am still waiting…

Current mood: satisfied

Ok, so I am on the computer IM'n on of my girlfriends and we are talking about my current adventure of looking for employment while I am taking this semester off from school. Hopefully to be followed with and acceptance letter to a nursing program and two years of classes for my degree (please oh please)! Anyway I find an ad in the newspaper for one of the many nudey bars in the St. Albans area. They are looking for dancers. I copy the ad and place it in my im and say this is it I have found it. She then tells me that her husband is telling her that there is such a bar in the Charleston area that is called Flirts or something like that, and it features big beautiful ladies like me. Now I don't know about you....but if I could make the same kind of money the skinny girls make....I'd do it in a heart beat. Or at least be a waitress or something. Some times I do believe the good Lord made me a Big woman because he knew what kind of person I'd be if I was a little thing running around. God probably thought that would be the only way I would have some since about me. And he is right. I probably wouldn't have a lick of sense other wise. I am smart with a good head on my shoulders. I can handle myself in any situation. Thank God he gave me big hips and good sense.

What am I doing?
Current mood: cynical

I am a strong woman, with good sense. So why do I let this one person in my life intimidate me and make me feel like my thirteen year old-self? Why can't I stand up for me when it comes to this person? I have made great strides to have confidence, confidence that I did not have as a young woman. But this person just sucks it out of me. I am getting to my limit, I have a long path that leads to that limit, and if I have reached it, then you know that an explosion is getting ready to happen. I hope that now I have the strength to survive the fall-out. And that for you who know me, know that I did not reach this point hurriedly, and that the decision I have made I did not make lightly. I am tired of being the diplomat, considering everyone's feelings, and doing what is good for all even if it isn't for me. I am going to stop doing that now.

Currently listening: Mechanical Animals (Explicit Cover) By Marilyn Manson Release date: By 15 September, 1998